It's a special day today I'm setting time aside to pray That maybe things might change a bit this year But I'm a fool for having dreams Or at least that's what it seems Since I'm on the outside looking in at you I wonder why I never got that lovin' for myself Is it because I made you mad or brought you down? I don't know why I've never had that lovin' for myself I'm just a mess sometimes I'm sorry if I've ever let you down Oh I can see Why I may feel so lonely I'm trying to make due Without you Spending special days alone Wishing you were here We're all just spending special days alone And I am praying for the day When I can look to you and say My love I am so glad to be with you It's another special day And yet again alone I stay It seems my luck is always running out But maybe I deserve this mess God knows I am not the best Yeah I'm slowly losing my own peace of mind I wonder why I never got that lovin' for myself Is it because I'm always insecure and sad? I don't know why I've never had that lovin' for myself I'm just a lonely little mess and maybe I just bring you down It can't be true That I'm not good enough for you I think I'm way too hard on myself Spending special days alone Wishing you were here We're all just spending special days alone And I am praying for the day When I can confidently say I'm deeply endless in love with you And I have fallen to my knees To beg myself to air my pleas I won't let loneliness destroy me! I'm a mess My seams are bursting I confess But maybe I could spend the day with you? Spending special days alone Wishing you were here We're all just spending special days alone But now it all seems clear I'll never spend another day alone And I am praying for the day That I don't have to hide away And I can live my life next to you And I am praying for the day When I can look to you and say My love I am so glad to be with you